She writes about the difference between believing in God (merely that He does exist) and actually believing God (that He is who He says He is). In the first few chapters she tells the reader that she has prayed something very specific for those who read the book. She has prayed that God would do something miraculous in the lives of the readers early on in their journey with the text to remind the reader of God's might and that He is exactly who He says He is.
I read that yesterday. The same day that we set aside each month (the 19th) to pray specifically for Bradley all day long. And I had been pleading with God. Begging Him to do a mighty work so that we could meet our boy soon.
Those same prayers kept me from easily drifting off to sleep last night and kept me in bed longer than usual this morning.
And while I was still laying there (scrolling through #textswithmymom on Instagram, in case you need a good laugh), my phone rang.
It was Lesley, our case manager. I sat bolt upright in bed.
Lesley: "Hi, Baylor. How are you?"
Me: "I think that depends on what you are about to say to me."
Lesley: "Do you want to go to Africa?"
Me (through lots of tears): "I really, really do!"
So guess what, people?
WE ARE GOING TO ETHIOPIA TO MEET OUR SON!
The call came at 9 this morning, and I am still shaking.
Oh, but for God's goodness and grace! I posted YESTERDAY asking you to pray. God brought me to a book that I had at my fingertips for more than a year YESTERDAY. We prayed for Bradley all day YESTERDAY.
Oh, my heart. How big and how great our God is.
Adam, of course, was at work, and I was not about to break this news over the phone. So with VERY shaky hands, I attempted to iron a shirt and put on some eyeliner (I'm not looking my best) to drive to the hospital to tell him.
And, as the Lord would have it, several of his wonderful co-workers were back in the offices, and he was not. So I quickly explained what was going on, and they paged him back and hid around the office with cameras.
And then... This...
So we are leaving for Ethiopia in three weeks. And we will finally get to hold the boy we have been praying for for more than three years.
My heart is full.
"Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain,
'Go, throw yourself into the sea,'
and does not doubt in their heart,
but believes that what they say will happen,
it will be done for them."